The Day I Left

 

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The day I left you
with violence in your heart,
your eyes lashing out at life,
at love.

You seemed as a giant.
A force,
like a roiling hurricane,
unpredictable,
incomprehensible,
terrible.

Inside, little boy lost,
alone
in your internal voyage.
Dying, screaming,
‘don’t leave me’.

The weight of your need,
crushing, stifling,
leaving me breathless and small
in its enormity.

Keeping me in chains,
bound by the bonds of children,
held tightly, firmly,
in the narcissistic grip
of what is you.

My needs disappear
like a chameleon in the wood,
blending with yours
until I am just a thought,
an idea.

The day I left,
confusion clouded your eyes
like a smoke filled room.
My loneliness filled the room
with your answer.

My tears drowned you in truth.
My indifference
ripped you to shreds.
The boy emerging,
the truth, unsure.

The day I left
I took a breath,
my first in years,
filling my soul with freedom.
Claiming the life long buried within.
Remembering me again.

“Where were you?” I asked,
embracing the girl lost long ago.
Doesn’t matter, I answered.
I’m back.

 

 


Author Notes

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11 Comments for “The Day I Left”

says:

Damn girl, I felt like I had written this, like I was reading my own words. I feel like you and I should write a book together or something…lol I think we would have a lot to say and a lot to collaborate on. No words for this poem, today. Just, I’m glad you “Are Back!”

Write On!
Becky

RissRyker518

says:

I’m sorry you have to live through that, but glad your back, too. It’s the story of many, unfortunately. Breaking free is the most wonderful feeling in the world.

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